What an incredible conclusion to one of the most heart rending stories I’ve ever read.
“Love doesn’t let you walk away clean. Love is messy. Love takes a fucking piece of you before it’s done.”
We finally get to the end of Tristan and Danika’s story and what a journey it’s been. So many ups and downs, so many tears and laughter, and more pain that two people in love should ever have to handle. But RK Lilley is not done taking our hearts through the grinder. You will cry with them and for them. You’re heart will shatter, but it will mend, right along with theirs.
Lovely Trigger begins a few months after the accident. You know, the accident that left Danika broken in more ways than one. Tristan wants to make amends. He’s already in rehab and trying and hoping for a reconciliation.
I longed to have her in my life. In any capacity. I’d take literally anything. I wouldn’t be happy with less than everything, but I’d take what I could get. Crumbs, scraps, tastes of what she once felt for me, as a salve for what I still felt in abundance for her.
But he doesn’t even know half of what happened to Danika in that accident. He can see what happened physically, but the emotional scars are enough to convince Danika that the two of them can never be friends again, let alone lovers.
“There is this hollow place inside of me, where my faith in you used to be. I am so full of fear, and I do not know how to let myself trust you again. I don’t have the strength to do this. Not again.”
The story, rather, the conclusion to their story then spans a period of over six years. Of Tristan trying to fix something that can probably never be fixed. Of Danika trying to move on with her life. But their love is a sickness and a cure together. No one can hurt Tristan the way Danika can and vice versa. But only they can heal each other. And they are bound to each other. Couldn’t move on even if they tried.
I was naked, but I didn’t even try to cover myself from his eyes. My body wasn’t the most exposed part of me just then. I wanted to cover my heart.
RK Lilley tells their story the way it should be told. Pulling no punches. She doesn’t shy away from making your heart bleed. And bleed it does. Because their story is not an easy one to tell. But in all that pain, even when you can’t see a sliver of hope… you can’t help but do just that. Hope. Hope that their story is not just a tragedy. Hope that they can find some happiness together.
It’d always been like that between us, there had always been the drive to touch, to feel each other in every way one human could touch another, inside, outside, body, soul.
And so there we have it. The saga of Tristan and Danika. The battles and the victories. The defeats and the triumphs. The tragedies and the trials. But love, love above all.
She was mine again. And, even when she hadn’t wanted me, when I’d lost all faith, I’d always, always been hers.
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