I’m not sure what I just read. The first three chapters of the book went by so fast and by the time I was getting to the fourth I had to stop and figure out if I was wrong about the genre. See, the book was recommended to me by a friend who called it dark erotica. And by the third chapter I was still waiting for it to get dark… and it did. Just not the way I was expecting.
Taylor McAvay is in the woods surrounded by dead men and the man who killed them. The man is convinced she was part of a plan and wants to kill her. But is stopped by his partner. The partner, Sebastian, is convinced that Taylor wasn’t with the dead men and sets her free, but he also asks her out on a date. The date goes well and soon enough they’re living together. But Taylor starts seeing cracks in the man she loves. He has a dark side, and she learns that first hand.
Like I said, the first 3 chapters moved so fast. From date to dating to moving in. I thought it was too fast. I also didn’t understand why my friend called this dark erotica. But when we started getting to know Sebastian, I realized what she meant. I’m just not sure I would label the book as such. This was an abusive relationship, plain and simple. Sebastian? Crazy lunatic, again, plain and simple. He reminded me of Tony in the Consequences series.
There was always something darkly dangerous seething just below the surface with him. Before, she’d thought it was just part of his allure, something that came from knowing part of what he did, and who he could be on the job. Now, she wasn’t so sure.
He was seriously insane this man. Bipolar even. He would switch from punishing her and threatening her…
“Taylor opened her mouth, but he silenced her with a finger and slow shake of his head.
“No,” he warned. “The only words I want to hear from your mouth at this point are, ‘yes, Sebastian’ or ‘I would be happy to, Sebastian.’ Anything else is only going to piss me off. Are we clear?”
…to the sweetest guy on earth.
“You don’t get it do you?” he asked softly. “This is my way of thanking you. You’ve brought meaning to my life-given it purpose. For the first time, there is a sense of light to balance the dark.” He shook his head, slowly against hers. “I would give you the world if I could, and it still wouldn’t be enough, Taylor. it would never be enough. I love you.”
But the sweet moments could never compensate to how brutal he was with her. I seriously wondered why she stayed with him. It isn’t as if he hid who he was. And the best thing is that the book is written in 3rd person narrative so we got to know his thoughts. And though I never fully understood him, I felt for him. He was seriously one disturbed man.
I enjoyed this story, it was steamy and insane, so of course I did. But something is still bothering me. I didn’t get the point of it. I was fascinated, don’t get me wrong, but I kept wondering where the author was going with the story. I was waiting for an explosive finish where I’ll get an ‘aha’ moment or maybe be left ‘mindfucked’, but I was left confused. Maybe subsequent books will explain the author’s intention, or maybe I’m just slow and it’s clear. sigh
Now weirdly enough, without understanding the direction, I still enjoyed the book. I kept waiting for Sebastian’s moods and to be honest, enjoying the build up and waiting for something… something that did not come… so I’m not sure about my rating.
3.5 for now. Maybe I’ll get a belated ‘aha’ moment and up the rating.
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Finally I’d like to thank the author for providing this copy for my review.